How in the world has 6 months gone by since we welcomed our miracle girl into our world? I want to say it seems like yesterday that I was still pregnant and in some ways it does but in more ways Eden has been the perfect completion of our little family that it seems like she’s always been here.
I didn’t expect to love every stage with her because with Ezekiel I loved every stage more than the one before and I thought maybe because of that experience I wouldn’t love the stages as much since I would always be looking forward to the next. I’m happy to say I’m still absolutely loving every stage – newborn to now has been amazing. Watching a little person develop and grow and being an integral part of that process is such a privilege! I know far too many people that don’t get to experience that for many reasons and so I try daily to be very present in the process and be grateful for even the hard days. As always happens in my life I’m finding that even the difficult days don’t seem so difficult until I’m looking at them in the past. The newborn to three months didn’t seem as daunting at the time as they seem now looking back. The lack of schedule, the learning of behaviours, cries, likes and dislikes. The juggling the busyness of keeping two humans alive – all seems so daunting now looking back on it but really in the moment I didn’t mind it. Then the 3-6 months of finally getting into some sort of rhythm coupled with my need to be home resting and becoming comfortable with my own struggles (read about that here) again seems so daunting now on the other side of it but the process didn’t seem so bad. In fact it was invigorating to realize we were getting into a rhythm and schedule finally and my Type A personality rejoiced in what soon would become a bit of predictability.
Yes being a mother of two is not as easy as being a mother of one (to all my twin momma’s out there – you are absolute rockstars!!!) but it is just as rewarding and life giving as being a mother of one. The stages, the discoveries, the developments are all just as worthy of celebration and my desire to celebrate them has been just as strong as when I was experiencing them with my first (to my surprise). No there aren’t as many pictures – mainly because I want to experience it all without the hindrance of taking a million pictures. You could label that as a “second child problem” but I’m labeling it as a “more present mother” problem, which isn’t a problem at all.
Eden is our little sunshine girl. She is pure joy bottled into one little human. Honestly, I don’t think I’ve ever met such a happy baby. She smiles with her entire body, laughs with the funniest little snorts and loves so fiercely that she can’t control how tightly she grabs you for a hug. Yes, she is INTENSE in all of her joy and that joy overflows into all that know her. I know that she will be a girl and woman that uplifts those around her, who loves beyond her limits and brings life to all who know her. She has already been that to our family and we are so so so lucky to call her our little miracle girl.