Days Like This

Hey Friends!

I’ve been posting less often the last week and a half.  I’ve really just been laying low, relaxing and focusing on enjoying my last month.  It has been B.L.I.S.S.

Today however, is off to a ROUGH start.

Patience are wearing thin.

Buttons are being pushed.

As I type this Ezekiel is screaming in his crib, protesting sleep, after 1 hour of screaming and yelling and throwing fits before nap time.  He’s even refusing to nurse in an attempt to not sleep.

If I know one thing it’s this: he.is.persistent.

If I know another thing it’s this: I.am.stubborn.

We’ll see who wins this battle.

I actually woke up this morning early to do some yoga, shower and enjoy a cup of coffee before Ezekiel woke up.  I thought “this is brilliant, we are going to have such a great day.”

Don’t you hate when your expectations are thwarted, and worst of all it’s completely out of your control.

It’s mornings like this when I really need to stop, take a breath (or two or three or a thousand), bring myself back to a place where I can calmly deal with a screaming child while not inwardly losing my mind.

It’s days like this when I really need time to pray, read and reflect to keep my energy up and enjoy the moments when Ezekiel isn’t screaming in my face.

It’s days like this that I really need to practice gratitude.

Screaming or not, this miracle boy is everything and more that I ever dreamed of, and in every moment I will be grateful for his presence.

What are your challenges lately? How do you overcome them?

Gratitude

Fall Walk

Yesterday Ezekiel and I took a photo shoot walk with one of my closest friends and her daughter who is exactly one month older than Ezekiel.  We chatted about life, motherhood, and futures.  We stopped at various spots along the trail to get some great photos, and just had a really good time.

Days like today always put me in such a thankful mood.  Spending quality time with friends basically guarantees that I will be reflecting all day long and yesterday was no different.

I was reminded of a quote by Melody Beattie:

[Gratitude] turns what we have into enough and more.  It turns denial into acceptance, chaos into order, confusion into clarity… it makes sense of our past, brings peace for today, and creates a vision for tomorrow.

For me, as I continue to strive for simplicity I find myself becoming more grateful for the things I do have.  I cherish the small moments more, I look out my window and adore the beauty of nature more, I stop to enjoy a cup of tea in the middle of the day, I make sure to express myself to those around me, and generally I enjoy life way more.

So let’s practice gratitude and make what we have now, enough for tomorrow.