Almost two years ago I had reached the lowest weight of my adult (and I think adolescent life) and I felt great! Fast forward through returning to work, several stressful situations, poor tracking of food and supreme lack of activity and now my most current health issues and I am 20 lbs heavier and not feeling great at all.
It’s not all about the weight, although I’d like to lose at least 10-15lbs of what I’ve gained, it’s more about how I feel BECAUSE of the weight. It’s thoughts that go through my head, the discouragement I feel because I feel like I’ve failed myself. Today I spent a full day on myself, learning to love myself the way I am, learning to be comfortable in my own skin despite what the scale says.
The thing is, is that I’ve gained the weight and punished myself by not allowing myself to buy clothes that I feel comfortable in. The clothes I wear are wearable but definitely not comfortable and I kept promising myself that once I lost some weight then I’d be able to buy a few more items of clothing. It’s been several months with no budging on the scale (I haven’t been trying at all), and although I do intend to change that in the next few months I am done punishing myself. This morning I spent the entire morning just browsing the mall, trying on clothes and being so intentional with what I purchased. Only a few items and only things that I was absolutely comfortable wearing. I was so exhausted by the end of it but I came home excited about those items and ready to take on the next few months of intentional eating and activity.
After I returned home I decided that instead of driving to pick up Ezekiel from the Dayhome that I would walk the 2.7 km to get him. It was so nice to just walk alone, contemplating life and enjoying the gorgeous weather. We walked slowly back home stopping at the store and stopping to let him explore the flowers, trees, ants and anything else he was curious about. I’m sore all over and I’m more tired than I’ve been in a while but I’m satisfied knowing that today I’ve taken one step closer to loving myself as I am.
Two summers ago I got in the habit of a daily walk or two usually at least 4-5 km in length and that’s really all I did for activity but that’s all it took to make me feel well. I intend to get back to that place, of course daily walks on a 12hr work day aren’t going to be possible but the days in between will be full of walks and taking time out of the day for activity instead of worrying about the house and the laundry.
Alright, here it is! October 1 and time to unveil my fall wardrobe.
My capsule wardrobe is quite small, when I return to work in November I’ll only be wearing “regular clothes” half of the time. On top of having to purchase all new sized clothing, I have to purchase all new scrubs for work so I chose to keep my capsule small this year to save some money to purchase scrubs.
Forgive the photography!
From left to right:
- Joe Fresh
- Gap Legging Jean*
- Mexx Denim Flare
- Joe Fresh
Again from left to right:
- Banana Republic
- International INC Company
- Zenana Outfitters
- Knitted by my grandmother before she passed away but she hadn’t finished it so my mother finished it. (so super special!)
Finally shoes all purchased from Payless Shoe Source for fall.
Anything with an * beside is purchased for the fall capsule.
Not shown: 1 winter jacket (it’s gonna start snowing in not to long so even if this is my “fall” wardrobe, I need a winter jacket!), 1 brown faux leather jacket, 1 black blazer, and 1 pair of brown boots. All of the items not shown I’ve owned for at least a year, more like 2.
So that brings my wardrobe to 23 pieces and they are pretty straightforward, but I’m excited to be OK with what I have right now. I know that the more I do this the more I will learn about myself and my style, then with each new season my wardrobes will only get better!
Are you joining in on the capsule wardrobe fun? Have you purged your closet lately or shopped your closet??
Alright, I’m so happy and relieved to say my fall capsule wardrobe is complete!
I’m not going to show everything right now because occasionally I’m going to post my outfits and you’ll see it all there. I thought I’d go through a bit more detailed process of how I decided what I was going to buy and how I went about shopping.
I get daily emails from stores that I have had success with clothing in the past. I’ve mentioned before that I don’t spend a lot of money on clothing so the stores I shop at are definitely not high end, but make fairly good quality clothing and often have great deals. On Tuesday I noticed that there was a great deal going on at the Gap Factory store and I had an extra coupon for 15% off if I bought five items! So I quickly did a good search of my closet and nailed down what I wanted to buy. Here’s how I figured it out:
- For pants: I had five pairs of pants in my closet, 4 jeans and 1 pair of linen pants. One pair of jeans I bought because they were $10 and fit pretty great but I’ve since realized I actually don’t like them, so they are going into my garage sale pile for next year. The linen pants I’ll put away for next summer. That leaves me with 3 pairs of pants, ideally I’d like 5 so I needed to buy 2.
- For shirts: I had 13 shirts in my wardrobe in the summer. I basically got rid of the really bright colored ones, the sleeveless ones and a couple that I had bought that I ended up not really liking. Sales kill me, I’m learning to be far more intentional with my purchases and thinking through it a little more wisely. So I got rid of 6 and kept 7 and I want 10 so I needed to buy 3.
- For sweaters: I had 1 cardigan in my wardrobe already and I want 2 so I needed to buy one.
- For shoes: this subject is a disaster for me. I’m a tall girl with really large feet and there is nothing worse for me than shoe shopping. I hate it so much that when I do find a pair of shoes that fit me I’ll buy them and wear them out completely. The last time I bought a pair of shoes was 3 years ago! My husband started threatening that he wouldn’t go out in public with me unless I bought new shoes because mine were so worn out. So basically I was starting from scratch, although I had one pair of wedges I liked and a pair of boots that will do me another season.
So there’s the break down of how I decided what I needed. I had bought one shirt last week from Mexx for the fall wardrobe.
My budget for the wardrobe was $150 and that includes the shoes. So off I went to Banana Republic and Gap, they are free standing stores right beside each other and are both outlets. I promised myself that I wouldn’t buy something simply because it was a shirt on sale! In both stores I tried on about 10 items. I was proud when I walked away from really great deals at Banana Republic because they weren’t items I “loved.” Then I took my time walking through Gap and picked out a lot of stuff that were neutral and that I thought would make great editions to my wardrobe, in the end I had 1 pair of jeans, 2 long sleeve shirts and a cardigan that I really loved, I also picked up a onesie for my son to complete my 5 items to get an extra 15% off. After all was said and done I paid $90 and saved $120! I was pretty impressed with myself!
Next stop Payless Shoe Store, I didn’t have much hope of finding anything but was VERY pleasantly surprised to discover a brand of shoe that makes cute shoes in my size that aren’t extra wide. I’m not sure why, but I think shoe companies think that women with big feet must also be large people because most shoes that are 11 or 12’s are also super super wide, so even if they are long enough they don’t fit. On top of being wide they are never cute. But I actually had a hard time walking away with just 4 pairs! I spent a long time debating which 4 I was going to buy, the sale was buy one get one half off and 3/4 of the shoes I bought were already on a wicked sale. In the end I bought 2 wedges and 2 flats for $75 and saved $81!
Guys, it was a GREAT day. I was over budget $15 and still missing one pair of pants but I’m counting it a success. I do have another coupon for $25 off a $50 purchase at Gap Factory in October and there was another pair of jeans I really liked so I may go back and pick them up in October.
I’m so excited about my wardrobe and to challenge myself to create outfits out of the little that I have. I’m also excited to share that here!
OK, let’s talk fashion.
I’m going to be completely honest here. Fashion is SUPER hard for me. I love it and hate it all at the same time. I love pretty things (who doesn’t) but have no idea which pretty things will actually look pretty on me.
More often than not you’ll find me in a plain tee with a pair of jeans. There are a few factors that come in to play in this area. First off, I’m really broke which equals really cheap which leads to clothing I think I really like but I would say 80% of the reason I really like it, is because it’s really cheap. I don’t think spending money on clothing is a bad thing, I’m actually envious of the people who can spend that $100 on a good pair of jeans and not think twice about it. I realize that if you spend money on good quality it pays off, BUT I just can’t make clothing my priority because the money just isn’t there, literally. The second factor is that I lost 75 pounds (!) and have no idea how to dress my new body. Going from a size 14-16 to a size 6-8 is drastic and things look different now.
Doing this capsule wardrobe idea has really challenged me in a good way (to read more about this visit my Capsule Wardrobe page). It’s made me actually THINK about the way I want to present myself. It’s made me be very intentional with my clothes and actually research BEYOND just what’s on sale, and I think I’m going to be OK with not just shopping sales. I’ve put this post off for a week because it’s been so challenging, but I figured if I write about it now it might help me to solidify what I really want to do for this fall wardrobe.
So here’s what I’ve done so far and what I plan on doing this week.
- I Googled fashion style examples to see if I could get some help with what type of fashion style I am. It led me to this site, I took the quiz and it showed that I have a classic style. Reading through the description I definitely agreed with it. Sometimes I’ll buy bright colors but often regret it when I buy too much bright colors because they are hard to mix and match. So this season I’m going for mostly neutrals, blacks, browns, greys, and whites.
- I’ve stared at my current wardrobe, and thought about it long and hard. Some things I would like to get rid of for the season, like jeans I bought because they were a wicked deal but actually don’t really enjoy wearing. However there are so many of these items that it’s just not feasible at this point. Next season when I’m back to work I’m hoping to be able to weed out a lot of those items but for this season I’m recycling a lot of what I bought for summer that will work for fall. I’ll do a detailed post on what I’m keeping and getting rid of a little bit later.
- I scoured Pinterest and pinned anything that I thought fit the classic style and that I could see myself wearing. After pinning many many things I went through that board and narrowed down exactly what items of clothing I thought I would need this fall. From that I created a shopping list that was pretty specific (black leggings, skinny jeans, brown cardigan etc.). I’ll do another detailed post on this list as well.
- I haven’t done this yet but hopefully will find some time this week. Go SHOPPING! I need to be strategic with the day I go shopping. I’ve realized that I don’t really enjoy shopping with anyone, I’d rather go alone and I have to be in the right mindset. I actually don’t like shopping, it exhausts me and I’m definitely not a window shopper. When I shop I need a list and I have an exact agenda, I go to the mall for that reason and that reason alone. I don’t linger, I don’t try on what I don’t think I’ll like, and I don’t browse just to see what’s there. So if I go into H&M, I’m going specifically to try on X,Y, and Z. Browsing websites is useful for this.
I’m actually pretty excited about this. When it comes to clothing my husband and I lie on two different spectrum’s, he likes to hoard clothing and he loves to dress up. I like to dress up but I’m not confident enough to do it daily and I haven’t committed to a fashion style that I feel comfortable with all the time. I also have 1/10 of the amount of clothing he has because I wear my clothes until they are completely destroyed, and then I buy a couple pieces to replace them. I think having this capsule wardrobe will change that, and also give me a sense of style that I’m comfortable with, that looks classy and that my husband will love. Let me be real and say that I always feel better in my clothing when my husbands first reaction after seeing me is “You are so beautiful.”
So expect to see more on my capsule wardrobe this week!