The Pursuit of Dreams

  In my last post I vaguely and briefly mentioned that I would begin pursuing a dream in 2016 and that I wasn’t quite ready to write about it.

I’m still not ready.

It’s terrifying yet exciting.

It’s paralyzing yet invigorating.

I can’t choose between the emotions at any given time.

My mind goes back and forth – should I really do this? Isn’t what I have enough?

Maybe the biggest question of all:


I have a stable career – one that I enjoy for the most part.  I love my job, I’m passionate about what I do, yet I’ve had this nagging feeling for my entire life of what I really should be doing.

In fact in high school I made sure I took every class offered in my tiny little village school.  I even took some courses through correspondence.  I volunteered and did every extra curricular activity offered – all in preparation for my life long dream.

Then I graduated, took a missions trip to Trinidad and Tobago my first year out of high school.  Then I decided I’d just take a few years to get a degree in Biblical Studies – simply because I wanted to know more about my faith and the bible.  In the midst of that degree I ended up becoming a nursing aid in a long term care facility and was enthralled with the idea of becoming a nurse.  It wasn’t a far fetched idea given that my mother is one of the best nurses I know and LOVED her job – she was a phenomenal role model for me and so I decided – nursing would be the closest second to my big dream and I could be happy with my career.

It’s true – I could very easily stay in my career and be happy with it.

Yet after all these years I still wonder if it would have ever been possible.  If I truly pursued it could I have achieved my ultimate dream? I kept talking myself out of it – and even now I have so many reasons to talk myself out of it.  I have a family and we want to continue to expand it – so should I spend time trying to switch careers?

The longer I live the more I realize that everything happens for a reason – I don’t for a single second regret getting my nursing degree.  I love my job and I truly am fulfilled in it but there’s more out there for me.

I’m done questioning “what if” and instead I’m pursuing a career as a Family Physician.

It’s still so early in this process, so many steps to take in order to even get to the starting line but I’m choosing to believe that the passionate pursuit of dreams is always worth it – no matter the outcome

So here I am on step 1 – studying for the MCAT exam – and I already feel like I’m in over my head.  I have so much to write about it on this topic – I wish we could just go for a coffee and I could explain everything.  For now, I’ll leave it at this – wish me luck!

What’s your biggest dream? What’s holding you back or how are you pursuing it?


Dreaming of Coffee


I’m so excited right now.

For a long time I’ve dreamed (side note: I always feel like “dreamed” is an awkward word and try to use “dreamt” which isn’t a word, am I alone in this?!?) about having a separate space in our kitchen for a “coffee bar.”  I want all things coffee and tea to be off of my counter in it’s own cute little space.  Lately, it’s all I’ve been thinking about. I’ve literally been fixated on this idea.  I have it mostly planned out in my head and I’ve been on the hunt for good deals. The first step was finding a suitable piece of furniture to actually inhabit the coffee bar.

I’ve been checking Kijiji incessantly, several times a day – usually once every couple hours and of course in the middle of the night while I’m feeding Ezekiel.  My vision involves a french provincial buffet that I will refurbish myself in a shabby chic distressed white.  My budget is $75.  Do you know how hard it is to find an antique piece of furniture for $75? Nearly impossible! Most of what comes up is pieces of furniture that have already been refurbished – it’s a trend right now.  Everyone and their dog is searching for antiques to refurbish and sell.  The best I could find was an already refurbished buffet for $250-$500, definitely not in the budget!


A few days ago I found the perfect piece.  It’s not French Provincial but is antique, and has the long legs with no shelving on the bottom.  The best part? It comes with a large mirror, 2 chairs and a china cabinet that all match, for a measly $125!!

Are you jumping up and down in excitement for me?

Because I actually want to stop writing and jump up and down in excitement.

$50 over budget, but with 4 extra antique items, there was no way I could turn it down.

Also I just have to say I have the best friends ever, who also search Kijiji for me and then offer to pick up the items for me.



So to celebrate I’ve been on Pinterest finding inspirational photos.  It’ll be a while before it all comes together, but I thought I’d share some of my inspiration with you.

A Beautiful Mess - DIY PEG shelf

This Peg Shelf from A Beautiful Mess is a must! I’m thinking two shelves, the bottom pegged for cups.  The best part is it’s simple to build and budget friendly! But lets be honest, I’ll only start the building project before my husband gets nervous that I’ll cut off my hand and then finishes it for me.

Junk Chic Cottage - Coffee Bar

I almost died when I saw this.  This is coffee bar perfection! The white, the buffet, the shelves, the chalkboard.  I can’t handle it. You guys need to go check out Junk Chic Cottage for the full tour of this bar, it’s so great.

Natalie Creates Coffee Bar

Finally, this cute little space from Natalie Creates! I love that this space was created for under $150.  I love the decor on the shelves and that everything doesn’t perfectly match, but goes perfectly together! I actually already purchased two prints to be placed on our coffee bar shelves and I cannot wait to get them up!

As always I’ll be doing this slow and steady as our budget allows a few extra dollars here and there to finish the space but with the main item purchased I’m finding myself eager to get at it!  It’s not like I needed anything more on my to do list and I’m not going to pressure myself into getting this space finished in the next couple months, but I do want to get the buffet refurbished while the weather is still nice.  I figure two days of nap times should do it and I already have paint that was left in the house when we bought it, so all I have to purchase is some sandpaper!

I’ll keep you posted on the progress of my dream coffee bar.