Well, we made it! We actually truly made it to our scheduled C-section date of March 17, 2017! I’ll save the full birth story for another day but I wanted to do an announcement post for all you out there that follow along on our crazy journey.
Eden Bonandje (bon-an-jay)
March 17, 2017 @ 0938
My entire life I’ve always been quite vocal that I would love to be a boy mom and wouldn’t mind if I never had a girl. Regardless I was never curious enough or cared enough to find out the genders of my babies because in the end what really mattered to me was that I had a baby. Early on in this pregnancy I had a strong feeling that I was carrying a girl, but by the second trimester I was back to the “who knows” mentality. Still I often found myself referring to the baby as a girl in my mind. I think there might have only been one person who guessed that the baby was a boy and the rest – even complete strangers – were convinced baby was a girl. Ezekiel was beyond adamant that he was going to have a baby sister and you could not even try to entertain the idea that it just MIGHT be a boy. My husband really really really wanted a daughter and thought that since my pregnancy was so riddled with excitement that it had to be a girl because boys just don’t demand that kind of attention :). I just continued on in the mindset that either way I would be happy.
When they pulled her out and announced excitedly that she was a GIRL the joy and pure happiness that flowed through me took me by surprise. A girl, a daughter, my last baby is my baby girl. I still tear up thinking about it and probably will for years to come. I didn’t know how deeply my soul needed this girl. She is pure perfection and we are completely smitten. I find myself dreaming of raising her, of the values I want her to grow up with. The fears I had about raising a girl were swept away when I looked at her and replaced with the joy I’m feeling at the privilege I have of being able to raise a strong, confident, capable and wonderful woman.
I’m so happy to have been blessed with something I had no idea I needed so badly.