As part of my One Little Word (R.E.S.T.) this year I’ve decided to intentionally focus on one thing each month that will help me to dig into resting. I recognize that this year is going to be full. With adding two people to our household – one being introduced to Canadian culture for the first time and the other being a newborn who will need a lot of care and attention – it’s bound to be crazy and at times stressful. So resting is even more important for me this year, it will be absolutely necessary for my health in every way. My mental, spiritual, and physical health will all need to be nurtured and paid attention to.
January I decided I would do a “spending freeze”and not spend any money beyond groceries, medications and gas. I wanted to be able to not stress about money and wanted to start the year off with responsible and healthy spending. Well that was a complete and utter failure. I brought it on myself by not planning properly. I didn’t look ahead at the month and anticipate expenses, and so necessary (and super expensive) things like car maintenance came up and because I hadn’t budgeted or anticipated for it I ended up feeling like a failure. After that I just threw it to the wind but at the same time I always had this nagging in the back of my head. So instead of completely giving up on my financial goals this year I am picking myself up and trying again in February. Today I sat down and mapped out a budget that included expenses that I could anticipate. My knitting obsession was included in the budget so that I didn’t feel like a failure when I know for sure I would give in and just go buy yarn. I also know that I have a ladies date day with some friends that will cost money so that was included. Lastly this month is seed starting month and I need a few extra supplies, so I built that in to the budget. I’m ready to be financially free this year and I am determined to make it work.
Instead of just use my January goal for February I decided to keep on going and also focus on meditation as planned. This summer I started practicing meditation in the early mornings but once I got pregnant all of that fell to the wayside. I know that there are so many benefits to meditation and I am looking forward to including it into my prayer life as well. Mentally I know that I will need an outlet and a coping strategy when things get overwhelming this year. If this pregnancy goes as predicted that stress is probably going to start soon with a babe born a bit too early (although we are trucking along very well so here’s hoping the predictions are wrong!). I know that I am going to become obsessive over certain things like pumping enough breastmilk to meet the demands of a growing preemie and getting the house ready for two new people. On top of that I know I will be stressed about splitting my time between home and the hospital. I am hoping that being intentional with meditation and learning coping strategies to deal with stress will help me to recognize my stress early and take time to deal with it instead of push it aside. I rarely feel stressed mentally but I have come to realize that although I don’t feel it mentally I am still stressed and my body eventually manifests the stress in other ways.
I am so looking forward to this year, to being able to have the capacity and time to focus on becoming a happier, healthier me and in turn becoming a happier, healthier wife and mother.