Well, today was potentially my last shift on the pediatric oncology unit for 2 months.
Part of thriving for me this year is making difficult choices in order to thrive as a mother and a wife.
Working full time is difficult in and of itself, but working full time 12 hour shift work is especially difficult. For myself, I love it and I love everything about my job. However, for my husband it was just too stressful alongside school work to take care of Ezekiel. I made the difficult decision to give up my permanent position to go casual and start looking elsewhere for a position that had better hours. I prayed and trusted that God would make something work – He always does. Out of the several resumes I submitted, I interviewed for four positions and was offered a casual position in the adult oncology clinics.
It was bittersweet leaving work today. I’m sad that I’ll be gone for a while and I’m sad that the amount of work I will have there is uncertain. I’m excited for a bit of a change of pace, and I’m excited that I get to continue in oncology and learn so much more. I never imagined that I would love oncology as much as I do, and I never imagined I’d be relieved to continue to work in oncology.
I have a week off before I start my orientation and I’m ready to spend the week organizing and cleaning. I’m ready to have a week to just do a bit of de-cluttering of my house, my mind, my body, my spirit. A new year always brings these feelings for me. I love the idea of starting fresh, and I’m ready to do so. I’m entering the year in great anticipation of wonderful things to come. I’ve had a lot of stress coming into this week but when I stepped into my house tonight I had a sense of great relief. God comes through again, and He knows exactly what I need and how to get me to that point.